It was Monday morning after giving Xami a bath when Bong asked me to feel
Xami's forehead because he seemed to be running a fever. I took his temp and it
was 39 degrees C. We decided to wait for 24 hours before taking him to the
hospital, giving him fever meds for the whole day. We waited for his fever to
abate, for 6 hours, then 10, then 12, then 15, then 20, still the fever
persisted. I read up on possible diagnosis for a fever that won't listen to
antipyretics, with no other signs and symptoms. Instead of waiting for the
24-hour period to pass, we took him to the ER at 3 in the morning because his
fever was even getting higher then stayed at 40-41. We arrived at the nurse's
station where everyone was asleep. One of the nurses stirred and sleepily
interviewed us, took Xami's temp and weight. She gave us instructions to take
Xami to the lab for a blood count and urinalysis. On our way to the lab, we met
the resident doctor and she told us to go back to the ER because she'll examine
Xami there. She asked me a few questions, and then asked the nurse for a tongue
depressor. After opening and closing drawers for a couple of minutes, the nurse
came back with a 10cc syringe, saying that the hospital has ran out of tongue
depressors so we'll have to make do with the syringe. So in vain, we pried open
Xami's mouth and tried to use this big cylindrical plastic as a tongue
depressor. I did not see Xami opened his mouth enough to see through his throat
but apparently the doctor saw that his throat was red and swollen. She
concluded that it was most probably a streptococcal infection so she prescribed
an antibiotic with instructions to get Xami checked again if the fever persists
for three more days.
Xami was still febrile the whole day Tuesday until early Wednesday
afternoon. He seemed to have gained strength late afternoon Wednesday and was
running around the house for a whole two hours. At 5:30PM though, he crept into
bed and was looking very ill again. The fever shot up to 39.6-41 again and
stayed within that range the whole night even with Paracetamol. On Thursday
morning, he was at 38-39 and seemed to be just a little weak but seems to be
recovering. So we decided to go straight to Bagabag to teach my morphology
class at the LCI and to drop by the doctor's office on our way back. While I
was teaching my class, Bong tried to get Xami to drink Gatorade as much as he
can. At 11AM, we took him to a new pediatrician. Upon seeing Xami, she quickly
decided to send us to get Xami tested for Dengue. We went to another
hospital because the test called Dengueline is not available at the Danguilan
clinic so we went to MMG. The medtech took Xami's blood and we waited for more
than two hours for the result. While waiting, we went to have lunch at a nearby
restaurant and Xami thirstily drank half a glass of iced tea and then a few
drops of water but refused all the solid food we tried to give him.
We went back to the lab to get the blood test results and I saw that it was
negative for dengue. We brought the results to the doctor's office but the
pediatrician already left and we were told that she won't be back until 4:30PM.
It was already 2PM at the time, and since the dengue test was negative, we
decided to go home, and just come back in the morning. We arrived at our
apartment, and Xami and I fell asleep. When I woke up at 4:30, I saw that
I missed three calls on my phone and there were 6 messages from the same
number. It was all from the pediatrician saying that she is waiting in her
office. I told her that the dengue test was negative and that we'll come see
her in the morning. At that moment, I looked at the lab result more closely and
I saw that there were actually two different tests, and the second page was a
detailed CBC, where it was indicated that Xami's platelets were at 45 when the
normal range is at least 205 upwards. I also noticed other numbers that were
either too low or too high compared to the indicated normal values, so I
immediately sent the abnormal values to the doctor and asked for her advise.
She immediately texted back that we need to get Xami to the hospital asap
because although the dengueline test was negative, the very low platelet count
was still indicative of dengue. I asked her to meet us at the only tertiary
government hospital in the province but she said she is no longer connected
with that hospital but that she can refer us to someone. She named a doctor,
and that was the doctor with whom we had a very bad experience regarding Xami's
past seizure disorder. She named another one and it was someone I never
consulted in the past but I have heard good reports about her from my
relatives.
We went to the nearby provincial hospital in town since that's where the
other pediatrician is connected. The scene that greeted us was rows after rows
of ill people lying on cot beds outside the hospital buildings. We went
directly to the ER and the admitting resident and nurse immediately hooked Xami
to an IV line with a Paracetamol push. We were at the ER for almost an hour
waiting for the doctor to come see Xami for further instructions, as the nurses
promised to inform the doctor that she has a new patient in the hospital. We
were wheeled into a room with five other patients already occupying the room.
By this time, Xami was profusely sweating and growing weaker. I saw a doctor
entered the building, and she fits the physical description I was given, so I
asked a nurse if that was this particular pediatrician. It was indeed her so I
made a request to the nurse to inform the doctor that the patient referred to
her was at Room 5. The nurse told me that if we were referred to her, she will
certainly drop by our bedside. After a quarter of an hour, no doctor came, so I
went in search of her. I found her at a nurse's station in another building and
after a moment hesitation I drew near and I introduced myself saying that I am
the mother of the 1 year-old dengue patient who was endorsed to her. She said
no one has endorsed anyone to her and I was stunned. Having no other choice, I
begged her to come see my baby. She came after another quarter of an hour or
so, and then after looking at Xami, she asked me to step out with her. We went
to the back of the hospital building to talk. She said many things but the gist
of it was that she cannot accept the responsibility of caring for a patient who
clearly needs more care than that particular hospital and the staff can
provide. Apparently the staff in the hospital are all new (due to the change of
government in the province) and she does not want to entrust my baby's care to
them because of past mistakes in the past few days in implementing her
orders. She also said the hospital has no ICU and that my son clearly
needs close monitoring preferably in a well-equipped ICU. I asked her if she
can recommend another hospital and she mentioned the one we went to on Tuesday
morning. A nurse made a call to that hospital and the answer was that we have
to bring our own bed and be satisfied to stay by a porch because the wards and
the hallways were already full.
I called the doctor who saw Xami that morning and asked her to take Xami
back as her patient but she said she's traveling to Manila the next morning. I
also told her that we will be moving to another hospital near her clinic
but she said that that particular hospital was also full. At that point,
I was already thinking about going to Baguio City but I know that the distance
will be a big problem for Xami. It is a good thing, the second doctor I was
talking to suggested a relatively new private hospital in the province (which
never crossed my mind although I know of its existence) and she encouraged us
to go there. After Bong settled the bill, Xami and I boarded an ambulance,
while Bong followed us in the car. (I wish nurses who come along sit with the
patient and not beside the driver where one cannot really ask for their assistance
while the ambulance is navigating the traffic at 100kmph. I needed help trying
to keep my seat and keep Xami on my lap and not to get his IV line dislodged
but I was alone at the back of the vehicle.) Xami's IV needle was indeed
dislodged as a result.
At 9PM, we arrived at the new hospital and by that time Xami's condition was
already worsening. His breathing was shallow, his heartbeat and pulse were
erratic, his skin was looking gray and his eyes were lifeless and staring...
all pointing to the fact that he was already deep into septic shock. The doctor
who admitted us called a consultant to ask help regarding Xami's care. After a
few minutes of talking on the phone, the doctor mobilized everyone to do all
the orders that the other doctor on the other end of the line must have
instructed. She said the priority was to pull Xami out of the shock. She feared
that Xami's kidneys were shutting down. He did not have any urinary output for
more than 8 hours already. They hooked Xami on another IV line and tried to
collect blood for another CBC from the line before connecting it to the IV
fluid but his blood has already gotten too thick that it won't even flow no
matter how they squeezed.
They fast dripped 300ml of IV fluid and waited for Xami to pee, but still
nothing; fast dripped another 300ml, still nothing, not even tears or sweat.
Fast dripped another 150ml, still nothing. They changed the IV fluid and fast
dripped 300ml of the new fluid, but still nothing. They alternated different
fluids and different rate of drops to keep the integrity of Xami's vein. Too
much fluid too fast can also cause vein collapse and that would also be fatal.
By that time, Xami's vital signs were already going extremely low. The
consultant doctor came to see Xami for herself and she and the resident doctor
discussed further procedures. The consultant jokingly told me and Bong that if
she met an accident along the way, her husband will blame us and take us to
court. Apparently, she does not drive at night but her hubby is out of town, so
she forced herself to drive to the ER to see Xami. She was coming from another
town. Of course, the Hippocratic oath was also to blame. :-)
The staff wheeled us to the ICU and hooked Xami to more tubes and wires;
some for monitoring and some as precaution for emergency life support in case
things get from worst to more worst (OK, that is ungrammatical but what can I
do, we are already past worse). Two nurses were stationed there to monitor Xami
every 5 minutes until he pees and his vital signs stabilized. The monitor kept
flashing red and going toot, toot, toot, every few minutes because of the
unstable heart rate, respiration, pulse rate and oxygen intake of Xami. Bong
and I just kept holding our son, silently praying that the Lord would give us
more time--years to spend with him. At 4AM, everyone sighed when we checked
Xami's diapers. The nurses weighed the diapers and found that Xami had a 300ml
output. After that, his vital signs started to become more stable and the
monitoring changed to every five minutes to every 15, then 30, then every hour.
Xami's situation continued to stabilize but his temperature was still extremely
high. They kept watching for signs of bleeding. Apparently, he already started
to bleed because when Bong changed Xami's nappies at 4:30PM, he had blackish
stool, indicating intestinal bleeding. The doctor decided to keep Xami in the
ICU until all his vital signs normalized.
This morning, when the doctor came to see Xami, she told us that she already
had brain and heart muscle stimulants prepared in case Xami's other
vital organs start shutting down, and that she was really worried that all her
solutions would not be able to pull Xami out of the shock. That was short of
saying it was a miracle Xami was revived.
All those hours of watching Xami fight for his life, I had two alternating
thoughts. I was blaming myself, thinking why I did not take Xami to the
hospital earlier than we did or that I should have forced it at the hospital
last Tuesday to get his complete blood count. I kept thinking that if we lose
him, I would certainly lose my mind. Then Bong would hold my hand and then I
would be reminded to pray, and tell myself to trust the Lord and thank Him
because it was truly by His guidance and wisdom that we were able to take Xami
to the right place and right doctor/s who were willing to interrupt their
sleeps and leave their children at home to save another child's life.The Lord
also knew that I would go crazy worrying and blaming myself, so as it happened,
I had accepted an online writing job the day before that was due that Thursday.
So when Xami was hooked to all the tubes and wires at the ICU, with the nurses
hovering every few minutes, I stepped out of the room to look for a corner
where I could write. I had to write five search engine optimization articles
with a minimum of 350-words each about a certain topic. The thought of beating
the deadline took my mind off my self-blame and worry for a whole hour and that
was a gift. My submission was late as I finished writing at 2AM Friday but my
kind and considerate agent accepted the articles.
We are home now with a son who continues to be a source of joy not only to
us but also to our extended family. I also told Bong that he won. He is okay
with only one child, I would like one more. But after undergoing this
ordeal, I told him, I will never ask him for another child again because I do
not want to feel so brokenhearted, helpless, and fearful about losing a child
ever again... Bong smiled his smile that says, Yeah Right. I guessed that's
because he knows I change my mind and my mood ten times a day.
Special thanks to Dra. Remigio, Dra. Padre and the resident doctor and all
the nurses at PLTC-Luis A. Tiam Memorial Medical Center for your part in
restoring Xami back to us. We are forever indebted to you.
Now, I thank my Father God for His gift of life and healing for my son and I
thank Him for the gift of a husband who has shared and shown no less than sheer
strength, quiet trust and unwavering faith in God that He is in control, and
gentle support for me even when I and everybody, even the medical and nursing
staff was already on the verge of panic. I thank my Lord Jesus for friends all
over the world who were there to intercede for us through their prayers. I
thank my God the Holy Spirit for the peace and comfort He gave to my heart,
knowing deep down that no matter what happens, the Lord knows best and that His
Name will be glorified.