2nd Doctor's visit

Hi Mahal ko, we went to the doctor today for your routine check up but I didn't know that they were going to give you a hepa B shot as well.  You were a good boy though, you only cried a little and then fell asleep right away.  I told Dr. Bunuan about the posturing you do of arching your back and neck and going so stiff and your eyeballs rolling up or going cross-eyed and she wants us to have you undergo an electroencephalogram and a cranial ultrasound.  You are also to take a medicine for your reflux but your dad could not find it in any of the pharmacies in town.  I so hope nothing is the matter with you.  I could not bear it if there is something wrong with your brain.  I begged the Lord for a normal results although we have yet to take you to undergo the procedures because we have no money.

Today you ran out of clothes to wear so I dressed you in a purple shirt that was from your lolo Bagly and you look so funny because it was a girl's sweatshirt. :)  You are cute...

Here's your Lullabye

LULLABYE (Dan Seals / Rafe Vanhoy) Sleep lay me down, hold me closely in your arms And I will close my eyes Please promise me that when I wake up from my dreams You’ll be there by my side Love, if you say you won’t slip away Then I can go dreaming of forever more But I won’t rest until I know that you will be here in the morning by my side Here in my reach I can see the one that I’ve waited for so long And deep in my heart I know the arms that hold me now Will hold me from now on Love, if you say you won’t slip away Then I can go dreaming of forever more But I won’t rest until I know that you will be here in the morning by my side I dread the dawn I awake and find you gone Please tell me you will stay Then sleep will come, I know the arms that hold me now Will hold me all my days Love, if you say you won’t slip away Then I can go dreaming of forever more But I won’t rest until I know that you will be here in the morning by my side. You do go to sleep with this song... usually... :)

May Bagyo

Bagyo ngayon... nakalimutan ko ang pangalan. Ikaw ay natulog lang buong maghapon although most of the morning ay kargakarga kita dahil kapag papahigain kita sa crib mo ay nagigising ka and you cry your signature whimpering cry that just melts my heart every time :)  so to my arms you go.  Andito si Tita Amor mo ngayon.  Sinundo natin sya nina Papa at Scarlett nung isang araw, kaya lang too bad kase di natin siya maipasyal at malakas ang ulan and wala tayong pera... hehehe... your papa and I need to recover sa gastos natin sa hospital... ang mahal mo kase Xami.. :)  sana ma-revalue na ang dinar so that your future can be secured financially.

Papa and I cut your fingernails today and your tita Amor and your papa took pictures of your beautiful little hands.  Kaya lang isang kamay lang ang natapos namin dahil nagising ka.

Right now, 2:42PM Saturday, you are asleep in your crib and nahirinan ka ng laway mo at umuubo ka.  All you do is so cute, my little big boy. I so adore you, my Xami. :)  You are such a good baby actually; not fussy and no crybaby. Thanks for that cuz I usually panic when you cry longer than a minute wondering what's ailing you.

You look so cute sleeping like this.

The ADORABLE you... at approx 2 hours

2nd Sunday

Last Sunday, I was so excited to get you to church (and maybe to show you off?) hehehe, that I just closed the door behind us without taking the key with us.  But I did not worry cuz I have left a duplicate at your lola's.  Well, to make the story short, she left the key to our keyboard inside our house!  I got a bit irritated with your lola because the reason for duplicates are to be left to another person's care so that in cases like this, there would be an extra key to borrow.  Anyway, there was no key so your dad just kicked the door and today we could not go to church because there was no way we could lock the door.  We have no money yet to buy a new lock.  The old lock was not working too well anyway, so it is really high time to get a new one.  Yup, so we did not go to church today but you slept through it, make cute noises and cried hungrily from time to time.  You are getting really really cute.

Your attitude is changing too.  You cry louder now, and longer too.  You also stay awake longer and that is good although hopefully you'd stay asleep longer at night. 

My surgical incision is so sore today and my tooth is so aching it is giving me a terrible headache.  Even so, I went with your dad to the prayer meeting and prayed about a lot of things.  I especiallya sked our dear Lord to watch over you and let you grow in the knowledge of Him... that He would give us guidance and wisdom to guide your growing up in the right path the leads to Him.

I love you my dear Xami.

This morning, Tita Jocelyn and Tita Violy came to visit you at 7AM.  Tita Sharon, and your lola alternated carrying you also.

your first Sunday

Today is the first Sunday, well, not really, since we were in the hospital on July 31st and that was a Sunday, but today is the first Sunday that you went to church or rather that I brought you to church. Your daddy thank the Lord in public for giving you to us.  We love you so much, our beloved Xami.  I was watching you sleeping in your crib and you are just so adorable.  You are sucking on your lips and you look so cute. 

This afternoon, your uncle Lee came to see you.  And also to confess something not so good that he did in Nansiakan.  Your grammie Lina looked so forlorn upon hearing uncle Lee's confession.  She begged him to be like your grandpa Longcoy who had never given her any problem or cause for embarrassment.  I pray dear Xami that you will grow up a God-fearing, humble, respectful and respectable smart adult who will be someone that will make me proud.  I'm not saying you be perfect, just someone who is smart enough not to let himself be influenced by bad friends, substances like alcohol, or pride.  This is my one prayer...

Day 8: An exhausting day

My dearest Xami,

Today your cousins Giel, Jelyrr, Yzel, Tito Gerry, and Tita Julie came to have lunch with us. It is your little homecoming lunch.  Of course Auntie Sarah and Ate Brianna came a day ahead.  We had spaghetti and baked chicken and of course all you did was sleep through it. And you are so adorable!  You also did not make any fuss.  Lola Medy Lolo Robert, Tita Justine and Tito RD were also in attendance, as well as Kuya Jaeger and Tita Nards.  Lola Medy cuddled you again and you slept like the good baby that you are until the afternoon.

In the PM, more cousins came.  Rana, Rizel and their mom, Mives, Tita Precy, Tito Randy and Lola Tessie also came. We had dinner together.  Inulam natin ang manok na dala ni Kuya Giel mo. :)  Si Tita Sharon, kawawa naman, kase lagi na lang siya ang naghuhugas ng mga plato. 

Today, wala ka talagang ginawa kundi matulog to the point na nagresearch na ako kung normal ba yun kase gumigising ka para dumede tapos tulog na naman. Pero normal daw.

Pumunta rin tayo sa Doctor mo at nanggigil siya sa'yo.  Niyakap ka niya ng pagkahigpit.  She told us, you are so worth the wait... of course she is soooo right!

Last night, I was watching you sleep and I was so overwhelmed by my love for you, I cried and cried as I pray that may the Lord watch over you even if I won't be able to be the perfect mother that you, my darling boy, deserves. 

I was watching you again tonight...and you are so adorable. I changed your nappy once at 10 o'clock then I was gonna feed you pero antok na antok ka, at ang cute cute mo. Ayaw mong kinukumutan ang kamay mo, gusto mo nasa ibabaw ito ng kumot. 

I love you my dearest Xami...