Yup! We dedicated you to the Lord last Saturday, Nov. 26th, 2011. Your granddad, grandmamang, Tita Amore, Tita Maemae, Kuya Aschy, and Ate AD were all here. I should post a picture so I don't have to enumerate everyone who made it. Well, you have a lot of Ninangs and Ninongs but only a few were able to come. The only one who lives quite farther away that came was your Ninang Jean. Oh well, basta, you looked so adorable in your little barong, a gift from Ninang Cecile. You got so tired during the long ceremony that when it was already time for pictorial, you dozed off. The songs I chose were sang beautifully by your ninangs Malu and Sharon and Cristy and our Kumpare Norman and his friend Junior Banig.
Your lola and lolo and the rest left last Sunday night. Tita Amore stayed though.
Today, you are exactly four months and you did something amazing. I lay you down on your back with your head on the groove of your special pillow and I went back working on my computer as I was trying to finish the brochure that we are going to use for our booth in Manila. After a few minutes, I heard you making strange noises, and something keeps banging at the side of your crib. I put away my computer and sat up and lo and behold, your feet are on the pillows and you are hitting your head on the footpart of your crib. Goodness, you turned 180 degrees! I scolded you and you looked up at me with your toothless grin.... so adorable!
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Monday, November 14, 2011
to manila and back
The past week has been fun and tiring at the same time. We left for Manila on Sunday morning. Scarlett behaved really good, we didn't have any major mishaps along the way. We drove via SCTEX where we ate lunch at Kenny Rogers. I missed KR food a lot. :)
We finally got to SIL GH after a few wrong turns but your dad managed to find our way. That afternoon, we rode a taxi to SM North to meet your tita mai and tito dave and ate AD. We had dinner at The President but you went fussy and weepy the moment you woke up. The food was great! It should be, as it was so expensive! Hehe! So my focus turned from the food to trying to get you to settle but you won't have any of it. I tried to nurse you but you scratched at me instead so I asked papa to go get you a pacifier. He found a grocery many floors down and we washed your pacifier with tea, stuck it on your mouth and you went all quiet. But after a few minutes, you started to fuss again so I know you must have been so tired. When we got home to the GH you cried like something hurts and you only stopped when I laid you down, applied some lotion on your tummy and massaged it. We slept in one single bed and papa slept in another opposite us.
In the morning, we went to the dining hall for breakfast. You met Donna & Ron Schumacher for the first time. Tita Marilou came to sit with you. You also met Ninang Lani, Sue & Ian McQuay and others. Mama had her meeting but she had to come feed you every one and a half hour. The meeting went on and on but we finished at 5PM. Your cousins and Titas and Titos came and we ordered pizza, lots of it, and we ate at the poolside.
The next day, I bathe you on a faucet, that was hard. :) Then we got into a taxi to the Greenhills shopping center. We were supposed to buy you a suit for your dedication but you are so heavy, it was a challenge getting around kaya umuwi na lang tayo. Kinaumagahan, umuwi na tayo pero si Papa, nag-experiment pa kase kaya nagkandaligawligaw tayo sa Blumentritt bago pa tyao nakalabas sa NLEX. Dumating tayo sa bahay ng mga 1pm after 7 hours of travel. :) Over-all you are such a good baby sa travelling, di ka masyadong maarte at fussy.
We finally got to SIL GH after a few wrong turns but your dad managed to find our way. That afternoon, we rode a taxi to SM North to meet your tita mai and tito dave and ate AD. We had dinner at The President but you went fussy and weepy the moment you woke up. The food was great! It should be, as it was so expensive! Hehe! So my focus turned from the food to trying to get you to settle but you won't have any of it. I tried to nurse you but you scratched at me instead so I asked papa to go get you a pacifier. He found a grocery many floors down and we washed your pacifier with tea, stuck it on your mouth and you went all quiet. But after a few minutes, you started to fuss again so I know you must have been so tired. When we got home to the GH you cried like something hurts and you only stopped when I laid you down, applied some lotion on your tummy and massaged it. We slept in one single bed and papa slept in another opposite us.
In the morning, we went to the dining hall for breakfast. You met Donna & Ron Schumacher for the first time. Tita Marilou came to sit with you. You also met Ninang Lani, Sue & Ian McQuay and others. Mama had her meeting but she had to come feed you every one and a half hour. The meeting went on and on but we finished at 5PM. Your cousins and Titas and Titos came and we ordered pizza, lots of it, and we ate at the poolside.
The next day, I bathe you on a faucet, that was hard. :) Then we got into a taxi to the Greenhills shopping center. We were supposed to buy you a suit for your dedication but you are so heavy, it was a challenge getting around kaya umuwi na lang tayo. Kinaumagahan, umuwi na tayo pero si Papa, nag-experiment pa kase kaya nagkandaligawligaw tayo sa Blumentritt bago pa tyao nakalabas sa NLEX. Dumating tayo sa bahay ng mga 1pm after 7 hours of travel. :) Over-all you are such a good baby sa travelling, di ka masyadong maarte at fussy.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Tita Sharon is Back
Finally, your tita Sharon is back from a month-long sick leave of some kind. Now I was able to play scrabble, do some verses in Deuteronomy, and get some me-time. :) A while ago, you got angry because you were nursing and the milk must have ran out so you scream like an angry little tyke. I told you to look at me and not stop screaming. I put you on the other breast but you make faces as if the milk coming from it is rotten, so you screamed again. You are becoming quite demanding crybaby. But you are adorable so no matter. :)
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
a loud shout
Hi Xami, you shouted really loud today. I lay you down in your crib and you were wriggling and squirming and boxing the air and making all kinds of noises, then you shouted, looked at me and smiled your sweetest smile. I actually have flu, my head., muscles, joints, eyes are all aching and your dad is in Manila, and lola Lina, and tita Miriam also have the flu, so it's only the two of us. You are a good baby though, you slept most of the day and did not give me any tantrums. I also read to you a little bit today and showed you pictures. You looked at them as if you understand what they are... maybe you do, in your own baby way. You are so cute reacting happily on every colorful page that i turn in front of you.
Tomorrow, I'm going to cut your nails really short because last week, you started to suck on your mittens. I'm going to not put your mittens anymore.. ang laki mo na kase.
Tomorrow, I'm going to cut your nails really short because last week, you started to suck on your mittens. I'm going to not put your mittens anymore.. ang laki mo na kase.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
all for the love of Xami
What a trip we had in Baguio. We left at half past nine on Thursday morning, October 13th with your dad driving our Scarlett. We had an uneventful ride. We stopped at the Blvd resto in Kayapa Central to have lunch and change your nappies. We arrived in Baguio at 3PM and went directly to La Trinidad because it was already too late to see the neurologist, besides we are very tired. We were met by ninong Wilfred at the McDonalds in Km5 and then he took the wheel and drove Scarlett to their house in Ambiong. We spent the night at their house and you cried a little too much for a little bit too long that night. :) But we put vicks on your soles and dad massage your feet and you laughed like nothing had been the matter with you. They love you there, like a real grandson. They take turns checking on you. Even Jaaziel went into the room to see you. Every time ninang Carol cuddles or holds you, you coo and 'talk' or sleep like the baby that you are.
We left at around 8AM to go to Baguio but while we were approaching Km 4, Scarlett kept dying on us that she even reversed on someone else's truck. Dad managed to coax it to arrive at a safe place where we could pull over and check what was wrong. A mechanic in a shop nearby made a few adjustments and so we were able to start again. To make the story short, that did not keep Scarlett from coughing and dying for countless more times but it brought us to BMC at last. I actually laid you on their ER bed but when I asked if Doctor Bolislis is around, we were told she was not. They said she is in BGH so we went there but then I found out that this particular doctor your was no neurologist but a pediatrician. The next room was an office of a neuro pedia but she wasn't around so we then left and went to Notre Dame de Chartres Hospital where we finally saw Dr. Manolo Fernandez. We waited for a bit and you were a bit fussy. When it was our time to get checked, you started howling like something was hurting you. The doctor took you and you stopped crying. He checked you up and said, you seemed to be okay but the EEG does show that something is wrong. He laid you face down on his palm and lift you up and you were able to hold your head so he said, "Ang yabang mo ah!" He changed your medicine to phenobarbital, much milder than the Valproic Acid Dra. Bunuan prescribed and then told me to come again after a month and he'll repeat the EEG. If the EEG reveals that your seizures have abated, we won't have to subject you to any treatment anymore. Let us pray, my dear son, that this would be the case, as it is so difficult feeding you a medicine that I know could poison you.
When we went out to the receptionist to pay, you started crying again, like really cry so loud I did not know what to do. You cried for a whole five minutes or so and the doctor came out and took you back. He must have noticed I was already so flustered and tired and when he gave you back to me, at least you were starting to relax already. I sent a text message to your dad who went to buy a tension wire for Scarlett somewhere downtown. I went to find us a deserted hallway on the first floor so that you could nurse. We were in the feeding position when a good-looking older woman stopped by and peered at you and told me that I was doing you good breastfeeding you. She said she breastfed her children until they were five and four. She has has the look of a doctor, must be a pediatrician or something.
We left after your dad came back. We arrived back home at 6:35PM. It only took us less than 4 hours to get home, an hour shorter than our going.
You are prescribed with a controlled drugs. Dr Manolo Fernandez prescribed 100 tablets but this morning, they only gave us 30 tablets at the mercury drug. They're afraid a drug user is abusing the med. lol.
We left at around 8AM to go to Baguio but while we were approaching Km 4, Scarlett kept dying on us that she even reversed on someone else's truck. Dad managed to coax it to arrive at a safe place where we could pull over and check what was wrong. A mechanic in a shop nearby made a few adjustments and so we were able to start again. To make the story short, that did not keep Scarlett from coughing and dying for countless more times but it brought us to BMC at last. I actually laid you on their ER bed but when I asked if Doctor Bolislis is around, we were told she was not. They said she is in BGH so we went there but then I found out that this particular doctor your was no neurologist but a pediatrician. The next room was an office of a neuro pedia but she wasn't around so we then left and went to Notre Dame de Chartres Hospital where we finally saw Dr. Manolo Fernandez. We waited for a bit and you were a bit fussy. When it was our time to get checked, you started howling like something was hurting you. The doctor took you and you stopped crying. He checked you up and said, you seemed to be okay but the EEG does show that something is wrong. He laid you face down on his palm and lift you up and you were able to hold your head so he said, "Ang yabang mo ah!" He changed your medicine to phenobarbital, much milder than the Valproic Acid Dra. Bunuan prescribed and then told me to come again after a month and he'll repeat the EEG. If the EEG reveals that your seizures have abated, we won't have to subject you to any treatment anymore. Let us pray, my dear son, that this would be the case, as it is so difficult feeding you a medicine that I know could poison you.
When we went out to the receptionist to pay, you started crying again, like really cry so loud I did not know what to do. You cried for a whole five minutes or so and the doctor came out and took you back. He must have noticed I was already so flustered and tired and when he gave you back to me, at least you were starting to relax already. I sent a text message to your dad who went to buy a tension wire for Scarlett somewhere downtown. I went to find us a deserted hallway on the first floor so that you could nurse. We were in the feeding position when a good-looking older woman stopped by and peered at you and told me that I was doing you good breastfeeding you. She said she breastfed her children until they were five and four. She has has the look of a doctor, must be a pediatrician or something.
We left after your dad came back. We arrived back home at 6:35PM. It only took us less than 4 hours to get home, an hour shorter than our going.
You are prescribed with a controlled drugs. Dr Manolo Fernandez prescribed 100 tablets but this morning, they only gave us 30 tablets at the mercury drug. They're afraid a drug user is abusing the med. lol.
Monday, October 10, 2011
On Anticonvulsant
I started you on Valproic Acid today because your spasms have been very strong, and came in clusters that are too frequent. I hope this medicine will not harm you or anything. Your dad left for Manila this morning and so tonight, it's just you and me again. You are asleep now, after I gave you your medicine and vitamin. Please Lord, let this medicine do its work but keep away its bad side effects. Please keep my Xami...
Friday, September 30, 2011
AN NAMBEEW HI XAMI
So many things happened this week. First, tropical storm Pedring hit us last Monday night and by Tuesday morning, the winds were so strong that it fell two of your dad's mahogany trees right behind our house. He was so sad about it. They were standing really proud and one storm, they're gone. The river along CFM also overflowed and we were advised by your lola Medy to take precaution and just go to your lola Melita just in case the floodwaters come to our house. So off we went in the car and then your dad came back to place everything in the house in a safe place. We slept at lola Melita's apartment. She gave up her bed for you, and your mom and dad. The next morning, waters were steadily getting lower and so your dad came to get us and tita Erlyn, and Tita Janice were cleaning our house when we arrive, and everything was out of place. :)
Three days passed and still no electricity. It only came a few minutes ago, and it is already Friday. We went to your doctor today to get your shot against flu, etc. The vaccine is called Pentaxin. It was so expensive at 2500. We were supposed to get another one for gastroenteritis for 2500 more but we ran out of money so we'll get that next month. You were so brave, you only cried a little. We gave you Paracetamol right away just in case you will have fever due to the vaccine.
After the shot, we went to Solano so that dad could give the power adaptors that Lola Anne West needed for her team member.
At half past 6PM, your kuya Ysler, ate Ashlee and Tito Lee came to visit you. They came from Nansiakan. Kuya Yslel wanted to play with you/ We gave them some of your toycars too. You were smiling a lot today even if you are so feverish. That is my Big Boy Xami! :)
Three days passed and still no electricity. It only came a few minutes ago, and it is already Friday. We went to your doctor today to get your shot against flu, etc. The vaccine is called Pentaxin. It was so expensive at 2500. We were supposed to get another one for gastroenteritis for 2500 more but we ran out of money so we'll get that next month. You were so brave, you only cried a little. We gave you Paracetamol right away just in case you will have fever due to the vaccine.
After the shot, we went to Solano so that dad could give the power adaptors that Lola Anne West needed for her team member.
At half past 6PM, your kuya Ysler, ate Ashlee and Tito Lee came to visit you. They came from Nansiakan. Kuya Yslel wanted to play with you/ We gave them some of your toycars too. You were smiling a lot today even if you are so feverish. That is my Big Boy Xami! :)
Friday, September 23, 2011
Your First Road Trip beyond Solano
We went to Bagabag today. Papa and Mama had to go to the Dome to meet with Dr. Macalinao and other people. Tita Sharon came with us to babysit you. So many people there who has been praying for you saw you at last and they were all delighted even Dr. Macalinao. You slept like the good baby that you are from 3PM until Tita Sharon had to wake you up at 7pm because our meeting was over and it was time to go.
You look so guwapo now. All your baby acnes are gone.
Yesterday, papa went to Lagawe and there was only us. Lola and I bathe you but from the moment I took you out from the tub, you howled like you were in pain. I was so afraid I hurt you somewhere that I cried with you. But I just embraced you and you stopped crying and went to sleep straight away after you fed. You are so adorable!
You look so guwapo now. All your baby acnes are gone.
Yesterday, papa went to Lagawe and there was only us. Lola and I bathe you but from the moment I took you out from the tub, you howled like you were in pain. I was so afraid I hurt you somewhere that I cried with you. But I just embraced you and you stopped crying and went to sleep straight away after you fed. You are so adorable!
Monday, September 12, 2011
alone again
Yup, it's just you and me again for three days and four nights. Your dad has a Paratext training in Manila and classes at MFI so naiwan na naman tayo. The first night, nagising ka ng 1AM and pinatabi na lang kita sa waterbed at ingkipil taka, hiy anaogip kan inggaton 5AM. Ooni ay nabangon ka pero nakakatulog ka rin ulit when I give you your pacifier so Sunday night was a good night for both of us.
Monday night was another story. For some reason I could not get you to settle on the bed like the previous night. So lagi kang nagagalaw kaya hindi ka masyadong nakaktulog so I put you in your crib na lang at least nakatulog ka ng set of 2 hours from 10PM to 5AM with an hour of wakefulness in between. You are so cute pag nakahiga kang mag-isa sa waterbed at nakatagilid. :)
Today, we went to lola's very early in the morning to break our fast. I cooked or tried to cook french toast kase umiiyak ka. I guessed you were still sleepy. Now, it's 8:50AM and you are asleep in your crib with the aban still binding you. :)
Monday night was another story. For some reason I could not get you to settle on the bed like the previous night. So lagi kang nagagalaw kaya hindi ka masyadong nakaktulog so I put you in your crib na lang at least nakatulog ka ng set of 2 hours from 10PM to 5AM with an hour of wakefulness in between. You are so cute pag nakahiga kang mag-isa sa waterbed at nakatagilid. :)
Today, we went to lola's very early in the morning to break our fast. I cooked or tried to cook french toast kase umiiyak ka. I guessed you were still sleepy. Now, it's 8:50AM and you are asleep in your crib with the aban still binding you. :)
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
CUTE NA IKAW
Kagabi, di mo ako pinatulog mula 1AM hanggang 5AM :) Yes, mana ka sakin, baliktad ang araw nati. :) So ipinasa kita kay Tita Sharon mo nung 5am na at natulog ako ng hanggang alas dies although syempre may interlude doon ng pagpapadede sa'yo.. Wala kase ang papa mo, pumunta da Manila kahapon ng gabi kaya tayo lang dalawa sa kuwarto.
Today, ayan ka na naman sa crib mo, flailing your arms and raising your two feet. Nakaidlip ka na kaninang pinadede kita pero medyo gumalaw ako ng konti at may langgam sa crib mo, ayun, nagising ka tuloy. We played a little today. I tickled your cheeks and you keep giving me your wide cute smile. Now mejo umiiyak ka na kase tinatype ko ito... lol.. but you are such a good baby. Di ka gaano mareklamo.. okay, anjan na ang mama...
Today, ayan ka na naman sa crib mo, flailing your arms and raising your two feet. Nakaidlip ka na kaninang pinadede kita pero medyo gumalaw ako ng konti at may langgam sa crib mo, ayun, nagising ka tuloy. We played a little today. I tickled your cheeks and you keep giving me your wide cute smile. Now mejo umiiyak ka na kase tinatype ko ito... lol.. but you are such a good baby. Di ka gaano mareklamo.. okay, anjan na ang mama...
Saturday, September 3, 2011
CRY BABY
You and I were alone last night and for some reason, you won't go to sleep until I let you cry yourself to exhaustion. I started putting you to sleep at 3 quarter past 5 but you did not fall asleep until almost 10PM. All you wanted to do was nurse and nurse but you were becoming gassy and was regurgitating a lot that I feared it would do you a lot of harm. I tried to dance, rock, and sing you to sleep but you won't have any of it. At At almost 4AM, your dad came.
It was a difficult time looking at you crying and crying. I do not know what to do.
Today, you, your dad and I and tita Sharon went to Solano. That was your fist pasyal in that place. We went to eat at Greenwich. You started squirming while I was eating lasagna cuz you probably were hungry. Hayyy, Xami, you made life complicated for me but you are so worth it. I adore you and love you so much!
It was a difficult time looking at you crying and crying. I do not know what to do.
Today, you, your dad and I and tita Sharon went to Solano. That was your fist pasyal in that place. We went to eat at Greenwich. You started squirming while I was eating lasagna cuz you probably were hungry. Hayyy, Xami, you made life complicated for me but you are so worth it. I adore you and love you so much!
Monday, August 29, 2011
2nd Doctor's visit
Hi Mahal ko, we went to the doctor today for your routine check up but I didn't know that they were going to give you a hepa B shot as well. You were a good boy though, you only cried a little and then fell asleep right away. I told Dr. Bunuan about the posturing you do of arching your back and neck and going so stiff and your eyeballs rolling up or going cross-eyed and she wants us to have you undergo an electroencephalogram and a cranial ultrasound. You are also to take a medicine for your reflux but your dad could not find it in any of the pharmacies in town. I so hope nothing is the matter with you. I could not bear it if there is something wrong with your brain. I begged the Lord for a normal results although we have yet to take you to undergo the procedures because we have no money.
Today you ran out of clothes to wear so I dressed you in a purple shirt that was from your lolo Bagly and you look so funny because it was a girl's sweatshirt. :) You are cute...
Today you ran out of clothes to wear so I dressed you in a purple shirt that was from your lolo Bagly and you look so funny because it was a girl's sweatshirt. :) You are cute...
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Here's your Lullabye
LULLABYE
(Dan Seals / Rafe Vanhoy)
Sleep lay me down, hold me closely in your arms
And I will close my eyes
Please promise me that when I wake up from my dreams
You’ll be there by my side
Love, if you say you won’t slip away
Then I can go dreaming of forever more
But I won’t rest until
I know that you will be here in the morning by my side
Here in my reach
I can see the one that I’ve waited for so long
And deep in my heart I know the arms that hold me now
Will hold me from now on
Love, if you say you won’t slip away
Then I can go dreaming of forever more
But I won’t rest until
I know that you will be here in the morning by my side
I dread the dawn I awake and find you gone
Please tell me you will stay
Then sleep will come, I know the arms that hold me now
Will hold me all my days
Love, if you say you won’t slip away
Then I can go dreaming of forever more
But I won’t rest until
I know that you will be here in the morning by my side.
You do go to sleep with this song... usually... :)
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May Bagyo
Bagyo ngayon... nakalimutan ko ang pangalan. Ikaw ay natulog lang buong maghapon although most of the morning ay kargakarga kita dahil kapag papahigain kita sa crib mo ay nagigising ka and you cry your signature whimpering cry that just melts my heart every time :) so to my arms you go. Andito si Tita Amor mo ngayon. Sinundo natin sya nina Papa at Scarlett nung isang araw, kaya lang too bad kase di natin siya maipasyal at malakas ang ulan and wala tayong pera... hehehe... your papa and I need to recover sa gastos natin sa hospital... ang mahal mo kase Xami.. :) sana ma-revalue na ang dinar so that your future can be secured financially.
Papa and I cut your fingernails today and your tita Amor and your papa took pictures of your beautiful little hands. Kaya lang isang kamay lang ang natapos namin dahil nagising ka.
Right now, 2:42PM Saturday, you are asleep in your crib and nahirinan ka ng laway mo at umuubo ka. All you do is so cute, my little big boy. I so adore you, my Xami. :) You are such a good baby actually; not fussy and no crybaby. Thanks for that cuz I usually panic when you cry longer than a minute wondering what's ailing you.
You look so cute sleeping like this.
Papa and I cut your fingernails today and your tita Amor and your papa took pictures of your beautiful little hands. Kaya lang isang kamay lang ang natapos namin dahil nagising ka.
Right now, 2:42PM Saturday, you are asleep in your crib and nahirinan ka ng laway mo at umuubo ka. All you do is so cute, my little big boy. I so adore you, my Xami. :) You are such a good baby actually; not fussy and no crybaby. Thanks for that cuz I usually panic when you cry longer than a minute wondering what's ailing you.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
2nd Sunday
Last Sunday, I was so excited to get you to church (and maybe to show you off?) hehehe, that I just closed the door behind us without taking the key with us. But I did not worry cuz I have left a duplicate at your lola's. Well, to make the story short, she left the key to our keyboard inside our house! I got a bit irritated with your lola because the reason for duplicates are to be left to another person's care so that in cases like this, there would be an extra key to borrow. Anyway, there was no key so your dad just kicked the door and today we could not go to church because there was no way we could lock the door. We have no money yet to buy a new lock. The old lock was not working too well anyway, so it is really high time to get a new one. Yup, so we did not go to church today but you slept through it, make cute noises and cried hungrily from time to time. You are getting really really cute.
Your attitude is changing too. You cry louder now, and longer too. You also stay awake longer and that is good although hopefully you'd stay asleep longer at night.
My surgical incision is so sore today and my tooth is so aching it is giving me a terrible headache. Even so, I went with your dad to the prayer meeting and prayed about a lot of things. I especiallya sked our dear Lord to watch over you and let you grow in the knowledge of Him... that He would give us guidance and wisdom to guide your growing up in the right path the leads to Him.
I love you my dear Xami.
This morning, Tita Jocelyn and Tita Violy came to visit you at 7AM. Tita Sharon, and your lola alternated carrying you also.
Your attitude is changing too. You cry louder now, and longer too. You also stay awake longer and that is good although hopefully you'd stay asleep longer at night.
My surgical incision is so sore today and my tooth is so aching it is giving me a terrible headache. Even so, I went with your dad to the prayer meeting and prayed about a lot of things. I especiallya sked our dear Lord to watch over you and let you grow in the knowledge of Him... that He would give us guidance and wisdom to guide your growing up in the right path the leads to Him.
I love you my dear Xami.
This morning, Tita Jocelyn and Tita Violy came to visit you at 7AM. Tita Sharon, and your lola alternated carrying you also.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
your first Sunday
Today is the first Sunday, well, not really, since we were in the hospital on July 31st and that was a Sunday, but today is the first Sunday that you went to church or rather that I brought you to church. Your daddy thank the Lord in public for giving you to us. We love you so much, our beloved Xami. I was watching you sleeping in your crib and you are just so adorable. You are sucking on your lips and you look so cute.
This afternoon, your uncle Lee came to see you. And also to confess something not so good that he did in Nansiakan. Your grammie Lina looked so forlorn upon hearing uncle Lee's confession. She begged him to be like your grandpa Longcoy who had never given her any problem or cause for embarrassment. I pray dear Xami that you will grow up a God-fearing, humble, respectful and respectable smart adult who will be someone that will make me proud. I'm not saying you be perfect, just someone who is smart enough not to let himself be influenced by bad friends, substances like alcohol, or pride. This is my one prayer...
This afternoon, your uncle Lee came to see you. And also to confess something not so good that he did in Nansiakan. Your grammie Lina looked so forlorn upon hearing uncle Lee's confession. She begged him to be like your grandpa Longcoy who had never given her any problem or cause for embarrassment. I pray dear Xami that you will grow up a God-fearing, humble, respectful and respectable smart adult who will be someone that will make me proud. I'm not saying you be perfect, just someone who is smart enough not to let himself be influenced by bad friends, substances like alcohol, or pride. This is my one prayer...
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Day 8: An exhausting day
My dearest Xami,
Today your cousins Giel, Jelyrr, Yzel, Tito Gerry, and Tita Julie came to have lunch with us. It is your little homecoming lunch. Of course Auntie Sarah and Ate Brianna came a day ahead. We had spaghetti and baked chicken and of course all you did was sleep through it. And you are so adorable! You also did not make any fuss. Lola Medy Lolo Robert, Tita Justine and Tito RD were also in attendance, as well as Kuya Jaeger and Tita Nards. Lola Medy cuddled you again and you slept like the good baby that you are until the afternoon.
In the PM, more cousins came. Rana, Rizel and their mom, Mives, Tita Precy, Tito Randy and Lola Tessie also came. We had dinner together. Inulam natin ang manok na dala ni Kuya Giel mo. :) Si Tita Sharon, kawawa naman, kase lagi na lang siya ang naghuhugas ng mga plato.
Today, wala ka talagang ginawa kundi matulog to the point na nagresearch na ako kung normal ba yun kase gumigising ka para dumede tapos tulog na naman. Pero normal daw.
Pumunta rin tayo sa Doctor mo at nanggigil siya sa'yo. Niyakap ka niya ng pagkahigpit. She told us, you are so worth the wait... of course she is soooo right!
Last night, I was watching you sleep and I was so overwhelmed by my love for you, I cried and cried as I pray that may the Lord watch over you even if I won't be able to be the perfect mother that you, my darling boy, deserves.
I was watching you again tonight...and you are so adorable. I changed your nappy once at 10 o'clock then I was gonna feed you pero antok na antok ka, at ang cute cute mo. Ayaw mong kinukumutan ang kamay mo, gusto mo nasa ibabaw ito ng kumot.
I love you my dearest Xami...
Today your cousins Giel, Jelyrr, Yzel, Tito Gerry, and Tita Julie came to have lunch with us. It is your little homecoming lunch. Of course Auntie Sarah and Ate Brianna came a day ahead. We had spaghetti and baked chicken and of course all you did was sleep through it. And you are so adorable! You also did not make any fuss. Lola Medy Lolo Robert, Tita Justine and Tito RD were also in attendance, as well as Kuya Jaeger and Tita Nards. Lola Medy cuddled you again and you slept like the good baby that you are until the afternoon.
In the PM, more cousins came. Rana, Rizel and their mom, Mives, Tita Precy, Tito Randy and Lola Tessie also came. We had dinner together. Inulam natin ang manok na dala ni Kuya Giel mo. :) Si Tita Sharon, kawawa naman, kase lagi na lang siya ang naghuhugas ng mga plato.
Today, wala ka talagang ginawa kundi matulog to the point na nagresearch na ako kung normal ba yun kase gumigising ka para dumede tapos tulog na naman. Pero normal daw.
Pumunta rin tayo sa Doctor mo at nanggigil siya sa'yo. Niyakap ka niya ng pagkahigpit. She told us, you are so worth the wait... of course she is soooo right!
Last night, I was watching you sleep and I was so overwhelmed by my love for you, I cried and cried as I pray that may the Lord watch over you even if I won't be able to be the perfect mother that you, my darling boy, deserves.
I was watching you again tonight...and you are so adorable. I changed your nappy once at 10 o'clock then I was gonna feed you pero antok na antok ka, at ang cute cute mo. Ayaw mong kinukumutan ang kamay mo, gusto mo nasa ibabaw ito ng kumot.
I love you my dearest Xami...
Friday, August 5, 2011
OUR PRECIOUS MIRACLE, XAMI
"All along the way, I, the LORD your God, have blessed your every effort. I have been attentive to your travels through this great wasteland. These forty years I have been with you; you have lacked for nothing.’" Deut. 2:7 (NET)
Sometimes, Bong and I felt like this journey of trying to have a child was somewhat like that of the Israelites wandering round and round the wilderness, sometimes losing sight of the Promised Land when we were faced with walls of Jericho, but the Lord has put His Words on our path as I have been working on the book of Deuteronomy, He has this passage to assure me, like He did the Israelites that He is there every step of the way.
We would like to introduce to you our precious little ‘giant’ Xam. You have been praying for him and his mother for nine months now and we would like to officially announce that the Lord has answered our prayers and Xam was born via c-section last Friday, July 29th, 2011.
As many of you know, I (Margie) dreaded any wound as healing does not come very easy for a diabetic like me, so much so that I really begged my doctor to let me try what she calls a ‘trial labor.’ I have every intention of giving birth the normal spontaneous way that is why I have waited even a week after my expected date of delivery for natural labor to occur and the Lord did grant my wish, when by early Thursday, I started feeling that ‘fault-of-Eve’ pain that comes with childbirth. I called my doctor and she said true labor will probably come 24 hours later so she advised me to stay active and positive. By 4am Friday, the contractions were getting longer and closer together so after doing some walking around our compound, we decided to head to the hospital. I was admitted and examined right after we arrived at around 7AM and was wheeled to the labor room to be monitored properly. I was hooked to a non-stress test monitor, and also to an IV line and the necessary normal delivery preparations were carried out.
There were at least 20 pregnant women who came and went through the labor room that day but at 8pm, I was the only one left. My labor pains were intense for hours but for some reason my baby’s head won’t come down and my dilation got stuck at 5cm. I decided to ask for an epidural to manage the pain and was going to get it but my doctor examined me again and felt that my pelvic bones did not budge at all in all the hours that passed. She told me I need a c-section right away because prolonging the labor is causing distress to my baby and that I won’t be able to give birth normally anyway because she suspects a contracted pelvis not to mention that my son has gotten really big because of the extra sugar he had to deal with. Upon further evaluation, the condition was confirmed and I was told that contracted pelvis is common to people with skeletal defects and I do have a spinal condition called scoliosis which most likely contributed to if not caused it.
My doctor went out to inform Bong about her suggestion and after a few minutes they came back together, and the doctor and Bong prayed over me and the flurry of activities prepping me for the procedure started. Meanwhile the labor pain that seems to be getting me in and out of consciousness continued. After like forever, my doctor came back to tell me that she cannot find an anesthesiologist and my condition is getting desperate as the baby is getting more stressed out. She called every colleague she knew and no one is responding. But she had someone at the hospital call the hospital in the next province Ifugao, and thankfully, the hospital in Lagawe was able to send one of their anesthesiologists, and she arrived an hour or two later. The Lord has held Xami inside for 9 months so I knew He is able to keep him for a few more hours of waiting for the medical team to assemble themselves. There was nothing I could do on that table but to leave it all up to my God and He did not fail me.
I learned later that my son was born at 10:35PM and I woke up at the recovery room at 1:30AM where I met my precious little Xami for the first time, when he was brought in to nurse as he was already waking up the whole charity ward with his crying. Praise God that Xami did not have to spend any time in the NICU because his blood sugar levels did not crash to abnormal levels as could be expected of babies by diabetic mothers. He was subjected to a lot of needles for blood glucose monitoring since the first hour of his birth but that was all. He did not need any aggressive medical intervention. His parents are really really thankful for this.
As many of you know, I am medically 90% infertile due to my other medical conditions but for seven years we have kept the faith that the Lord will grant the desire of our hearts in His own time, and He did! He has given Bong and me this precious gift and you have been part of this gift because you have faithfully upheld us in your prayers. We couldn’t have made it without the support we have been generously given by you, our family, colleagues, mentors and friends—all of you, our family in the love of God.
Our heartfelt gratitude goes to you and may the Lord bless you richly for sharing your love with us.
Some were asking what his full name is. His full name is Raymie Xamyrrh (pronounced SUMMER). The Ray is from his dad's name and the 'mie' from mine. Most of you know that I prepared a girl's name which was Xamyrrh Dawn and have been calling the child in my womb Xami eversince (Bong calls him Xam). But at 7 months, ultrasound revealed that the Lord gave us a boy but Bong doesn't want to drop the 'summer' and 'myrrh' idea in the name anymore, as well as the 'sammy' sound in the nickname, short for Samuel--God's answer to Hannah's petition... that is why we kept 'Xamyrrh' even if Xami's a boy.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Panicky
It's 2:38AM and I was finishing up Deuteronomy 2 when I felt a crashing pain on my chest and upper to mid-abdomen. I asked your dad to go get the stethoscope from grammie so I could listen to your heartbeat. I was only able to count 100bpm so I did it again, but same result. After a few minutes, I counted again, and it was barely 90. What in the world is wrong with you now? Please be okay... I am begging the Lord to let me know if I need to wake dad up to take us to the hospital. You are still moving a lot and that should be a good sign but it might also be because you are in distress. I hope you are not. I feel fine so I am hoping you're okay in there.
iloveyou, Xami
mama
iloveyou, Xami
mama
Saturday, July 23, 2011
THE CHOICE
So we are supposed to meet you for the first time today Xami, as this is your 40th week in there. But no, you have decided to stay there a bit longer. :)
And we still haven't settled on your name yet. Is it going to be Raynee/Raynie Xamyrrh or Xamyrrh Dew or just Raymie? Your dad even suggested Raygie to get the last syllable of my name in there, but it sounds like Regie, and I don't like anything for you that sounds too common. I hope you'll like the name I'll give you, whatever it is going to be.
The other day, I asked your dad if he is nervous at all about your coming out. He said he's feeling quite relaxed right now but that who knows how he's gonna feel when it's time. I told him I'm a bit scared about the whole thing. So anyway, I told him that if it comes down to choosing between me or you, that he should choose you. I cried saying that because of course, I would like to enjoy you, take care of you, be a really good mommy to you, but let's face it, this is a high risk pregnancy and it is not impossible for something to go wrong. But I hope to God I won't die giving birth to you as I would really love to watch you grow and become the person that the Lord God wants you to be.
A while ago, our doctor told us that we can still afford to wait one more week for you to voluntarily come out. If not, she'll have to cut open mommy and get you out. I really hope you'd be born without much help other than my pushing you out. Please Xami... please Lord Jesus! :)
It's 9 minutes to 1AM and your dad can't stand the light emanating from my laptop so he went and lie down on the coach in the living room. I think mostly though that he's mad at me for bringing up the 'choice' thing. But anyway, if that happens, that I perish birthing you, please make sure that your dad marries again, but not from the Kalanguya tribe. He can marry anyone, just not another Kalanguya. Why? Because she will be kawawa in the long run. Your dad will compare her to me all their married life and your mom is this unique weird girl who loves your dad with a love that knows no bound and sees no fault and so can never be replaced! Hehehe! :)
And I so love you, my dearest Xami.
And we still haven't settled on your name yet. Is it going to be Raynee/Raynie Xamyrrh or Xamyrrh Dew or just Raymie? Your dad even suggested Raygie to get the last syllable of my name in there, but it sounds like Regie, and I don't like anything for you that sounds too common. I hope you'll like the name I'll give you, whatever it is going to be.
The other day, I asked your dad if he is nervous at all about your coming out. He said he's feeling quite relaxed right now but that who knows how he's gonna feel when it's time. I told him I'm a bit scared about the whole thing. So anyway, I told him that if it comes down to choosing between me or you, that he should choose you. I cried saying that because of course, I would like to enjoy you, take care of you, be a really good mommy to you, but let's face it, this is a high risk pregnancy and it is not impossible for something to go wrong. But I hope to God I won't die giving birth to you as I would really love to watch you grow and become the person that the Lord God wants you to be.
A while ago, our doctor told us that we can still afford to wait one more week for you to voluntarily come out. If not, she'll have to cut open mommy and get you out. I really hope you'd be born without much help other than my pushing you out. Please Xami... please Lord Jesus! :)
It's 9 minutes to 1AM and your dad can't stand the light emanating from my laptop so he went and lie down on the coach in the living room. I think mostly though that he's mad at me for bringing up the 'choice' thing. But anyway, if that happens, that I perish birthing you, please make sure that your dad marries again, but not from the Kalanguya tribe. He can marry anyone, just not another Kalanguya. Why? Because she will be kawawa in the long run. Your dad will compare her to me all their married life and your mom is this unique weird girl who loves your dad with a love that knows no bound and sees no fault and so can never be replaced! Hehehe! :)
And I so love you, my dearest Xami.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
CRYING OVER YOU
I was electrocuted for a second today. There was a lizard that died and was stinking the whole bathroom so I looked for it and when I saw it squished in the door jamb, I had your dad clean it up. Afterwards, the very bad smell was still there so I proceeded to wipe it with bleach and all that. But it also happened that I have been wanting to clean the bathroom bit by bit so I started cleaning the sink because I have been waiting for Sharon or anyone to clean it up including the mirror but no one seems to ever notice the muck that has collected there so I wet a sponge and started wiping but I accidentally touched the electric switch with the tip of the sponge and I felt a minor electric shock on my right hands.
Right away, I became very afraid for you , my Xami because I also had a bit of a major electric shock when I was pregnant with your brother JJ and may be all those little things had contributed to my miscarriage of him. I was crying a lot tonight apologizing to you and to your dad, willing you to move and be okay. I took the stethoscope and tried to listen to your heartbeat. I could not bear it if I have caused you harm in any way. I don't know what I'd do if I lose you again. I don't think I can ever get over it if that ever happens. I was begging the Lord to make you safe. I love you so much, please be okay. You have been kicking a lot though as if you are reassuring me that you are okay... and thank you so much baby for those little movements and hiccups that lets your dad and me know that you are still in there with us. Please be okay, my love.
By the way, I have learned last Saturday during your routine ultrasound that you are a boy. Your dad was so thrilled. :) I am also very happy as I wanted to really give your dad a son to carry his name. What was funny is that for some time now I felt like you were a girl so I prepared a girl's name... now I have to think again... what should we call you Xami? We're still keeping the Xamyrrh, but the Dawn sounds too girlish, doesn't it? And I do not want you to hate me for calling you a girl's name. LOL! Your dad suggested that we just change the spelling to Don, but I kind of don't like it. It sounds like some rich old fat man who sits by doing absolutely nothing relevant in the world. So I won't call you that. I'm thinking Xamyrrh Dew and your dad likes it too... after all, you are the Dew in the long Summer of my marriage to your dad. Dry Summer... dry in the sense that we have waited for you for six long years, not that my marriage to your dad was ever dry. No, absolutely not. Your dad is the kindest, funny, and best husband I could ever have. He is my BEST!
Four more weeks and you'll be with us. I have already packed our bags for hospital stay.
Iloveyou more than life itself.
Right away, I became very afraid for you , my Xami because I also had a bit of a major electric shock when I was pregnant with your brother JJ and may be all those little things had contributed to my miscarriage of him. I was crying a lot tonight apologizing to you and to your dad, willing you to move and be okay. I took the stethoscope and tried to listen to your heartbeat. I could not bear it if I have caused you harm in any way. I don't know what I'd do if I lose you again. I don't think I can ever get over it if that ever happens. I was begging the Lord to make you safe. I love you so much, please be okay. You have been kicking a lot though as if you are reassuring me that you are okay... and thank you so much baby for those little movements and hiccups that lets your dad and me know that you are still in there with us. Please be okay, my love.
By the way, I have learned last Saturday during your routine ultrasound that you are a boy. Your dad was so thrilled. :) I am also very happy as I wanted to really give your dad a son to carry his name. What was funny is that for some time now I felt like you were a girl so I prepared a girl's name... now I have to think again... what should we call you Xami? We're still keeping the Xamyrrh, but the Dawn sounds too girlish, doesn't it? And I do not want you to hate me for calling you a girl's name. LOL! Your dad suggested that we just change the spelling to Don, but I kind of don't like it. It sounds like some rich old fat man who sits by doing absolutely nothing relevant in the world. So I won't call you that. I'm thinking Xamyrrh Dew and your dad likes it too... after all, you are the Dew in the long Summer of my marriage to your dad. Dry Summer... dry in the sense that we have waited for you for six long years, not that my marriage to your dad was ever dry. No, absolutely not. Your dad is the kindest, funny, and best husband I could ever have. He is my BEST!
Four more weeks and you'll be with us. I have already packed our bags for hospital stay.
Iloveyou more than life itself.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Hospital Bag
Hi Xami, your dad, tita Sharon and I went to Solano today to buy groceries for Saturday. Your uncles Gerry, Lee and Brian, and Aunts Sarah, Julie, and Meriam and your cousins Kuya Giel, ate Jelyrr, ate Lhyzel, Kuya Gyhzler, ate Ashlee, and Ate Brianna will be here for dinner in remembrance of your Lolo Longcoy. Too bad you will not be able to see and know him. You would love him I'm sure! He would be giving you piggy back rides if he's here. But he went to heaven already and you are yet to be born. Still, I will try my best to let you know him at least even if only in pictures and stories.
So anyway, I am slowly completing your hospital bag. I bought you your first newborn diapers today, your milkbath, your baby soap and other stuff that you will need. I have added these to the bag that I have packed up for you. Your lolo Bagly has sent you clothes from the US. They're second hand, but they're so cute and you will surely look so cute in them.
I could not sleep again today because I have slept for the good part of the afternoon after we came back from Solano. And you, you keep reminding me that you're there (as if I'd forget :) by kicking at me mercilessly. :) That's okay, sweetheart. I love it when you kick, as long as you're not kicking at my bladder, as it is so difficult for me to get out of bed now that you've grown so big in my tummy. Your Papa usually helps me but he's already off to Dreamland so no help for me there.
I gotta try to sleep though... Iloveyou, and really can't wait to see you already... :) 4-6 more weeks, and you'll be out here... :)
So anyway, I am slowly completing your hospital bag. I bought you your first newborn diapers today, your milkbath, your baby soap and other stuff that you will need. I have added these to the bag that I have packed up for you. Your lolo Bagly has sent you clothes from the US. They're second hand, but they're so cute and you will surely look so cute in them.
I could not sleep again today because I have slept for the good part of the afternoon after we came back from Solano. And you, you keep reminding me that you're there (as if I'd forget :) by kicking at me mercilessly. :) That's okay, sweetheart. I love it when you kick, as long as you're not kicking at my bladder, as it is so difficult for me to get out of bed now that you've grown so big in my tummy. Your Papa usually helps me but he's already off to Dreamland so no help for me there.
I gotta try to sleep though... Iloveyou, and really can't wait to see you already... :) 4-6 more weeks, and you'll be out here... :)
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
33 weeks 4 days
Yes, that's how old you are today: 33 weeks and 4 days. You can actually come out now and you'll be okay, but not yet, stay in there a while longer although there is nothing I want more than to hold you in my arms right now. Last week, before tita jenilyn and ate chloe went home, I asked your dad and jenilyn to remove the bookshelf from our bedroom so we can bring in the chest of drawers for us to put your things in. I just put in your lampin, your onesies and some mittens there. I also prepared your bag so we can just grab it and go when we need to get to the hospital.
I am so excited to see you already! :) You keep kicking at my ribs and it kind of hurts sometimes but that is okay. I love it when you're moving a lot. It reassures me that you are okay!
Iloveyou, my Xami.
I am so excited to see you already! :) You keep kicking at my ribs and it kind of hurts sometimes but that is okay. I love it when you're moving a lot. It reassures me that you are okay!
Iloveyou, my Xami.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
almost 7
Yes, Xami. You are almost 7 months now and as July nears, I couldn't help wanting to see you already. But no, you can't come out yet. You have to stay there a couple more weeks. My sugar went up to 260s yesterday because I ate a lot of sweet fruits. I am so sorry about that. I hope it doesn't affect you too much. I think it's destroying my eyesight though.
For a change, I tried to work not from my bed for two days but at the end of the second day, I almost fainted. You really don't like me sitting up. You want me horizontal all the time. You don't even like it when I lie on my left side which is the position the doctor recommended, as you keep kicking and moving around a lot when I do that. You just like me flat on my back... so that's what I am doing.
Really, I am so excited to see you now. I am thinking about the things your dad and I need to prepare for your coming. I have some onesies for you already, but I have yet to buy your layettes, pillows and other stuff. You don't have to fret on the stuffed toys department though, because daddy has already taken care of that. I'm sure you'll love all the little stuffed bears, and cows, and kittens and chipmunks that he bought for you.
I love you, Xami. See you in no time... :)
For a change, I tried to work not from my bed for two days but at the end of the second day, I almost fainted. You really don't like me sitting up. You want me horizontal all the time. You don't even like it when I lie on my left side which is the position the doctor recommended, as you keep kicking and moving around a lot when I do that. You just like me flat on my back... so that's what I am doing.
Really, I am so excited to see you now. I am thinking about the things your dad and I need to prepare for your coming. I have some onesies for you already, but I have yet to buy your layettes, pillows and other stuff. You don't have to fret on the stuffed toys department though, because daddy has already taken care of that. I'm sure you'll love all the little stuffed bears, and cows, and kittens and chipmunks that he bought for you.
I love you, Xami. See you in no time... :)
Thursday, April 14, 2011
SUGAR SCARE
My blood glucose measurements are too high today--up to 165, and my BP went up to 130/110. And you Xamyrrh keeps kicking at me. I hope it only means you're becoming strong there and not because you are in distress. I don't think I can bear losing you. Let's pray that our good Lord would hold us together longer and that you will be born healthy and that I would be there to take you in my arms and care for you until the day you don't need me anymore. Your dad is in Manila trying to take a exam for his course. I know he misses you and me already. We love you so much, our sweetheart! Please hang in there... we'll see you in no time.
Monday, April 4, 2011
In Bagabag with Papa and Kuya Yzlel
Today, papa, and Kuya Yzlel and I went to Bagabag. First we went to the bank, got some money and went to Solano to register at AIM Global, then to Bagabag we went.
Papa helped Ninang Marianne with her computer needs but it took until 4pm and I was so tired already and you keep kicking me but it was not painful, I really love it when I feel you moving in my tummy. Your kuya Yzlel and I went to the girl's dorm so Mama can lie down and rest a bit. Kuya Yzlel was so bored he keeps talking and talking. He even talks to you telling you to stay quiet and not move a lot because Mama is in pain. :) He told me to talk to you 'dadan' so that you will not get bored like he was.
Kuya Yzlel's pieces of advise:
"Tita, hapit mo dadan hi Xami."
"Xami, ag ka pantegid. Mahakitan hi mamam."
"Tita, opisan taka hiyay ma-kal i hakit mo."
"Xami, hehgeden tayoh papam, magano, on-akad kiho law."
Your Kuya Yzlel is so cool. You'll like him when you all grow up.
We arrived home at 6pm and I could not get up afterward. Papa left for Manila tonight and it's you and me alone again. He kissed you on my tummy and said, "I love you Xam, alagaan mo si mama ha!" :)
Papa and I love you so much, and we can't wait to see you na... if only I can pull the days para July na sana. :)
Papa helped Ninang Marianne with her computer needs but it took until 4pm and I was so tired already and you keep kicking me but it was not painful, I really love it when I feel you moving in my tummy. Your kuya Yzlel and I went to the girl's dorm so Mama can lie down and rest a bit. Kuya Yzlel was so bored he keeps talking and talking. He even talks to you telling you to stay quiet and not move a lot because Mama is in pain. :) He told me to talk to you 'dadan' so that you will not get bored like he was.
Kuya Yzlel's pieces of advise:
"Tita, hapit mo dadan hi Xami."
"Xami, ag ka pantegid. Mahakitan hi mamam."
"Tita, opisan taka hiyay ma-kal i hakit mo."
"Xami, hehgeden tayoh papam, magano, on-akad kiho law."
Your Kuya Yzlel is so cool. You'll like him when you all grow up.
We arrived home at 6pm and I could not get up afterward. Papa left for Manila tonight and it's you and me alone again. He kissed you on my tummy and said, "I love you Xam, alagaan mo si mama ha!" :)
Papa and I love you so much, and we can't wait to see you na... if only I can pull the days para July na sana. :)
Monday, March 28, 2011
Xami at 23 weeks
Yes, the little life growing inside of me is 23 weeks already, She's been kicking at my bladder like crazy ever since we passed the 20-week mark. I have been complaining about my having to go and empty my bladder every 15 minutes or so, and having to drink lots of fluid, but I miss it when Xami stops kicking. So actually, I am enjoying this pregnancy except that I have to lie down most of the day.
I keep imagining what it would be like to finally be a mother. Sometimes I get nervous because I know that sometimes I can be very lazy and so sometimes I wonder if I will be mom enough to be any good to my child.
Oh Well, I guessed, every first time mother have asked this question once in their life.
All I know is that I will love you and care for you, Xami, with every bit of my heart, person, and soul, and to the last of my strength.
I truly love you so much already... Xamyrrh Dawn Pido Lumawan.
I keep imagining what it would be like to finally be a mother. Sometimes I get nervous because I know that sometimes I can be very lazy and so sometimes I wonder if I will be mom enough to be any good to my child.
Oh Well, I guessed, every first time mother have asked this question once in their life.
All I know is that I will love you and care for you, Xami, with every bit of my heart, person, and soul, and to the last of my strength.
I truly love you so much already... Xamyrrh Dawn Pido Lumawan.
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